The studies of my engineering subjects do not interest me.
Stories of small start-ups growing like wild-fire inspire me.
I am stuck somewhere between the two.
The subjects taught in college are out-dated and no-one knows if there is any chance of updating the curriculum in near future. The lecturers suck big time and no-body can tell us why we are being taught the things we are being taught.
I am awed by the BIG stories of the budding entrepreneurs. I feel like, dropping out of college and start something of my own.…to be my own boss.
I feel awful at my condition, when I am left at the mercy of horny lecturers for incomplete assignments (in which no two lines make sense) or poor attendance or embarrassing marks at the unit tests.
I feel amused when I read about 15-16 year olds managing their own enterprises in foreign countries.
I am disheartened by thinking about the fact that, the idea of dropping out of college is silly or impractical.
I mean, I know….. What will I be if I fail at doing something of my own, if I am not even a graduate?
Sitting in the classroom 2nd last bench, I dream about being a big Entrepreneur.
And back at home, I worry about the scoring good at the stupid sessionals.
“Life is a race. If you don’t run, you will be like the ‘Broken Anda’ ”
….these are the lines from the latest blockbuster ‘Three Idiots’
Those lines imply that we’ve to run towards our goals every day, every minute.
But, I feel lost and unfocused. And I find no activity I do in a day; even a step towards my goal. I think I’m losing precious time in my own race.
I keep thinking everyday about how the things I can do, or what I can do really well can be used for making my dreams come true.
But, I have been unable to find a sturdy-enough answer.
I don’t know what is this all going to lead into….
But I keep thinking. I am trying to make some constructive plans in my head and hoping about affirmative results.
…Want to come out of this mess soon.